Am in a mental funk at the moment. Dull throbbing pain on the base of my neck (usually related to stress), difficulty in concentrating, and lack of motivation.
Possibly linked to an unsettled night’s sleep (which hasn’t resulted in me feeling otherwise tired – odd). Possibly related to recent diet changes.
Thinking about my lack of socialising recently (or socialising at all in the last year) may not be helping. Other than my trip with Reagan in May, I have only socialised with one other person (excluding family etc) in two months. My job doesn’t help with much: having to wake at 5am means a 2130 bedtime; and finishing work at 3pm also means hanging around for hours after work to see anyone. I’m failing to find a solution to this at the moment, but I need to. I miss people.
Dancing last week sucked. I was moved up a level and in a nutshell couldn’t do it. The routine was too long for me to remember and I was ‘dancing’ with people who had been at the level for 2 months or more. Constant mistakes; felt very self-conscious; got frustrated and angry with myself; wanted to go home after the first thirty minutes.
Moan, whinge, moan, whinge.