I go through phases of analysing my thought processes and personality traits. It’s an interesting process.
Something I’ve been aware of, vaguely, for some time are my obsessive thought patterns. I would go through brief periods of extreme focus on subjects, almost to the exclusion of all other thoughts – it would affect my ability to conduction relationships, work (except when it’s work related), and even make sure I’m looking after myself (eating properly etc).
Since I’ve been living alone, the distractions which would previously have jolted me out of the mode (or more precisely, wouldn’t allow me to continue) aren’t there. Because of this I’ve been having more frequent and longer bouts of these compulsive thought patterns. I don’t like it.
The most unsettling aspect though, is that I can’t think of a way to stop it. I don’t know when they’re going to start, when they’ve started they need to run their course, and when they’ve finished I end up waiting for the cycle to start.
Having more distractions could be one way, but that feels like using chewing gum to stop smoking – what happens when there’s no gum? I want a more permanent solution.
I’ve toyed with the idea of getting a house mate, but I crave my own space and don’t know I would be a particularly great person to live with. I definitely wouldn’t want to get someone in, find I didn’t like it, and be stuck sharing for 6 months. Nightmare.
So what to do? Can any of you lot identify with this? If so, how do you keep it manageable?